“And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.” Hebrews 4:13
As a child I would often go with my parents when my father preached at various local churches. Sometimes well-meaning individuals would comment on how well their son behaved in church. However, if they could have seen into my heart, they would have come to a different conclusion.
I am very grateful for the instruction of parents as they faithfully taught me truth from the Bible. This did me much good but looking back now I can see that my heart was resistant, rebellious and unrepentant. Inwardly I despised God’s ways and had I been older and freer to express these attitudes outwardly, I dread to think where I would be now.
One Sunday evening, I vividly remember being shocked when one of my friends at church told me he was a Christian. I had been sure that he was “with me”.
Later that evening, for the first time it became real to me that God exists. I had never really disputed this but that evening I knew it was true. I was forced to face up to the reality of my vulnerable situation – I knew that if I died that night, I would rightly spend eternity in hell for my rebellion.
I also knew this to be true – “Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners” (1 Tim 1:15). But here lay the battle. To know Christ as my Saviour, I would have to take Him as Lord. I would have to submit and surrender before Him. I would have to say sorry and really mean it. That was exactly what I didn’t want to do. This was the heart of my problem.
I believe that God was at work that night. In His grace He overcame my stubborn pride and led me to cry out to Him in prayer. He heard my prayer and I remember knowing peace with God – I now knew that if I died that night, I would spend eternity in heaven, saved by Jesus Christ who died on the cross in the place of sinners like me.